6 months ago, things were just as they were supposed to be; the hustle and bustle of our normal life with it being pretty near-perfect.
6 months ago, that pretty near-perfect life, it changed quite dramatically. It was life-altering.
6 months ago, Matt and I thought we had lost one of the most important — most special things in our life, Amber. In those first few days we thought that was it, that she wouldn’t make it through — or, if she did come through, Amber would be forever different, and not our “Amber” that once was. Those first few days were the hardest with grim thoughts swirling through our heads. One of those thoughts — not seeing Amber celebrate another birthday, ever. It’s dark and it’s sad, but as humans, it’s what our brain does. It tries to process the moments and put the future into perspective. But how different things turned out to be — God wasn’t ready for Amber to come home to Heaven just yet.
God has a very special plan for Amber, one that I believe has already, and is currently taking place. Our little Amber Grace has brought us all together. Family, friends, and strangers alike. We have, and are, coming together in our Faith and in our Hope. But God’s plan is beyond that. It’s simple yet complicated. So as we’ve all been brought together, my question is, what’s next in His grand plan? I hope it’s as simple as — Amber is cured by this clinical trial, which in turn gets this drug easily to other children to help cure them too. But God is mysterious . . . He may have other intentions. What I hope and pray is that God’s plan includes Amber celebrating many, many, many other birthdays here on Earth.
6 months ago, in those first few horrible unknown days and sleepless dark nights, Matt and I never thought we’d be sitting here, right now, eating Amber’s special birthday dinner of tacos, singing “Happy Birthday” to her smiling face, enjoying a piece of her delicious cake, and watching her excitedly open up her birthday gifts.
Thank you God for this extra special birthday day. It is truly a miracle that our Amber is alive and is enjoying all there is to enjoy about celebrating — especially, another year of life.
“Look at Lefty Mom!”